It's October 8th, the leaves are falling and all of the "firsts" have now been ticked off bar one, the anniversary of the balloon release I did with the children, her friends. One day in late October 2016 we released pink balloons in the park behind our house just a couple of weeks or so after the celebration of her… Continue reading The last of the firsts….
Before setting sail for our recent cruise in the Mediterranean and the Adriatic, I mentally planned a blog post. I packed my portable bluetooth keyboard, envisaging that I would buy wifi on the sea days and find a quiet spot and write, just as I had done during our week in Spain earlier in the… Continue reading Lost at Sea
On Thursday morning last week I woke up with an intense pain in my chest. It caused me to hug Phoebe's reindeer which I've taken to bed for comfort for months now, tighter, desperately wishing for the pain to subside. I knew I would have to take things slowly, breathe deeply and just accept that it wouldn't be possible to… Continue reading Other People’s Pain, Other People’s Joy…….
On the Sunday after our break in Spain, the 28th May 2017, I ran the Manchester 10k. I completed the course in 1 hour 8 minutes and 2 seconds, almost 2 minutes faster than I had done when Ralph had taken me out for a practise 10k a couple of weeks earlier and as this… Continue reading 10K in Manchester
Back in February Ralph asked me if I wanted to take a short break in Spain towards the end of May. We had been invited to join some friends to share an apartment and it wouldn't cost us any more than a budget airfare each. We'd go Monday to Friday so that it wouldn't impact… Continue reading Escape to the Sun
So after weeks of keeping it together, I cried at work........ The mask slipped and a glimpse of what lies beneath was laid bare for all to see and I felt exposed and anxious. A simple picture of a Minion with a Chiquita banana in a presentation triggered memories of Phoebe all dressed up in a… Continue reading What Lies Beneath
Sat in the pub waiting for our niece and her husband on Good Friday, Ralph asked me whether I felt he gave me enough support. I couldn't understand why he might think I thought he didn't, but he went on to explain "well you don't write much about me in your blog, you just said… Continue reading Run Ralph Run!
Mother's Day loomed large on the calendar. There was no escaping it, there was a large poster outside our local pub advertising Mother's Day lunches and front of store supermarket displays of gifts, cards and flowers were everywhere, even in my understated favourite, Waitrose. My inbox saw a steady influx of emails from Moonpig, Marks & Spencer, Boots and… Continue reading Mother’s Day
The 6 month anniversary of Phoebe's death is just around the corner. Half a year during which I have constantly tried to make some kind of sense of what is an utterly senseless situation. My emotions overwhelm me and the reality of losing Phoebe is painfully sinking in , but I am trying to stay determined in my… Continue reading A Bridge Between 2 Worlds..
February, I have never particularly liked February; such a dour month, sandwiched between January and March, it’s cold and grey; the festive season is but a memory and we shiver and dig in, heads down, making our way through each day waiting for Spring, warmer weather and looking forward to better things. I know it… Continue reading Climbing the Stairs to No Where….